BUZZ!!!

I've always been a full support of fun and interactive teaching in class especially English. Well, other subjects too..coz u see,a person's attention span is around erm..10 minutes?huhu..well,it depends...for kids less than 12 years old,maybe around 5 minutes..Seriously,guys..I don't make dis up..especially for Year 1 students,to grab their full attention for 5 minutes are really tough...

Ok,now..I've always been following wut's going on wif da education system long b4 I'm involved in dis industry. I'm one of the supporters of PPSMI (Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran Sains dan Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris) or Teaching and Learning of Science and Mathematics in English. Why? The main reason is the problem these kids will face later on. This was my experience. I learned everything except English in Bahasa Melayu. I have no problem wif that but I'm blessed that Mom always stressed on English. Ok,done wif da UPSR,PMR and SPM..Da problem began here when I was offered a place in dis 1 public university to study accountancy. Imagine my surprise that I have to learn in English. Seriously, I have no problem in understanding wut the lecturer was saying. Ok, I learn all dis terms in Bahasa Melayu and now I hv to be familiar wif diff terms in a very short time. All this 2 years of learning dis Prinsip Akaun (without adding up da 3 years of basic account in Living Skill subject.) and I'd been so used wif Penyata Kewangan, Kunci Kira-kira, Belanja Terakru etc and now I've to be familiar wif Income Statement, Balance Sheet, Accrued Expenses etc..hmm..okla..no big deal pun kan..

I remembered learning Additional Mathematics during Diploma (FYI, I didn't learn dat in school..huhu..) So,everyone was like hv dis knowledge in dis subject except me and I was freaking scared dat I might not be able to catch up wif them. Ironically, I did quite well..In fact, I realised, hey,it's not dat hard..Eventually, I learned dat my frens who hv da basic hv prob to relate wut they hv learned coz well,they learned it in BM..N I didn't face dat problem coz I learned from da start in English..so I didn't hv to be confused etc..

I was really surprised dat PPSMI hv been really scrapped off. I thought dat was a gud idea. See, my parents are products of English education system. They were forced to learn English indirectly.

Ok,ppl might ask me, dh kalo budak xphm,nak pakse apenye.xkan phm punye. When I did my School Based Experience( SBE ) at a Tamil school, I interviewed dis 1 teacher.He's an Indian but he doesn't know how to speak Tamil. He said he never speak in Tamil coz 1. he doesn't know how to speak da language,2. he wants to make the pupils speak to him in English. N I was amazed to see how he teaches them. So fun and lively. My English lecturer always say,to teach da language,don't expect da class to be quiet..hehe..so true.

Way b4 my training as a teacher,while I was a relief teacher, I always try to teach them differently than other teacher wud do. Once, I asked them to make a presentation like we did in university. Of coz,the kids don't know wut to do. The reason why I did dat bcoz I want them to be familiar wif presentation coz they will do it a lot later on and the main reason was I want them to be CONFIDENT. Confident in the sense of speaking da language and confident to speak in front of da public. The 1st presentation was tough. They were shy and I hv to constantly push them to speak louder. N I'm a firm believer dat if u don't listen wut other ppl are talking to u,they will do da same to us. So, I was the garang teacher bcoz I wud scold them to listen,listen and listen when their frens were talking..

Strangely,the second presentation was a success..not really a success but they improved. I was really happy..I cudn't describe da feelings. To see them hv dis confidence to speak even though in broken English, I nearly cry wif joy!!

Now, there's a lot of response given due to poor performance in English. N nonetheless, the teachers are being blamed. Well, I must agree that 1 is a factor but I know da real root problem is our mindset. The pupils are afraid to speak coz of shyness etc. Ckp English sket kwn2 perli,ngate..In fact some parents are not helping either by discouraging their kids when they want to speak. Hmm...Seriously, for me, I must say, change da system back. A major overhaul. Ni dlm kelas,ajar English dlm Bahasa Melayu..hmm...N seriously, fun,fun,fun is da key..

Just an opinion from a novice soon-to-be teacher..huhuhuh...

The want-it-all me~

I must admit dat I really want a new hp..seriously..in fact da current 1 dat I'm using is a gift..I've been drooling for nameless models..hmm...tgk nokia mcm cntik..pastu kuar iPhone...pastu Blackberry...pastu Samsung Galaxy...arghhhh...n my bro jst bought a new lappy..n it's Asus..I like Asus..My 1st lappy is Asus...I like da design n da reputation...mmgla xfemes mcm Acer,Dell etc but then for da IT enthusiasts,many of them recommend Asus..When my Asus broke down (actually xrosak pape pon..jst prob xleh nk connect da power source jek...n no spare part for dat...), I hv to settle down wif a cheaper Acer since Asus is more expensive..N when my bro bought a new Asus,hmm...I was so green wif envy..hehe

N then I heard few months back from Mr Gadgetginger abt Kinect...teringin plak dh...haih..kalah ibu mengandung btol la...

Actually, I plan to buy 1 external HDD n save all my files n docs in it and format da lappy...but then no money...Seriously, I plan to do dis since last year..When I got da money, I hv to put da plan on hold coz of da car,loan and other expenses..n I hv dis habit of always checking n comparing da prices...n most of da times it will always end up to be like dis--> mahal la...lain kali la....(dgn nada suara kehampaan gitu)

Hmm...I've always hv dis thought...I'm so destined to learn accountancy bcoz of da thriftiness...hehe...hey,I'm not thrifty la..I'm just brjimat cermat cmtu...brtuah tau dpt bini cmni..wakakaka :p

Ok,dis is da plan after I get all da accrued salary later when I will be posted :

1. Pay da PTPTN loan ( I never fail to pay ok...except when no enough money...dont forget to pay  ur loan...krg mati elok jek xsmpat byr hutg...huhuhu)

2. Buy a new hp

3. Buy an external HDD n format da lappy (seyes mesti byk giler virus)

See?da hp is given more priority than da lappy...but then dat's only a plan...when da time comes,cnfirm xjd...surely,da thriftiness will kick in...hehe...

Apart from dis technology thingy...tringin nak perfume br la,new bajus,new lipstick (lipstick yg less than rm20 pon leh tringin ke? u r sooo ngegade,Juita),new handbag (I only hv 1 nw...kene ada spare cmtu),new shoes...haih...Guys,Im not trying to scare u off...Women r so vain...actually,there are 4 types of woman (dis is my personal opinion ya...jgn serang lak)

  1. Jenis yg tgk ape jek,sume nak.xde tgk2 harga.(showoff lady)

  2. Jenis tgk jek,last2 pape pon xbeli.Makan pon dekut (jenis kedekut tramat)
  3. Jenis makan dekut tp kalo bab nk mnunjuk no 1

  4. Jenis bijak brbelanja.Tau pentingkan yg mane dl.Kedekut brpada2

Im  no 4 kot?hehehehe...but then when da tamak-ness dtg,xdenye nk pk sume tu...I once bought a perfume when I had dis bonus...(okla..My 1st job n dat was my 1st expensive perfume..I still hv dat perfume..xhbs lg)

Ok wut??hehe..so da conclusion is, I really want a lot of things...but I know dat life is not easy n money is hard to get..I appreciate that Mom taught us to be considerate n live in moderation...u can spend but give priority to the important stuff...

My mom is the best..She is :)

Crab,cockles et al~~

I must be crazy to put da name of da post like dis..hehe...Dis morning, I went for a jog wif mom at the beach like usual (usual here means usual place ok..hehe..jog tu dh rarely dh skrg ni :p) While stretching up,we noticed these 2 ladies were looking n digging smthing near the shore...n mind u,btol2 surut punye air laut kali ni...cewah..mcm xpnh tgk kan..hehe..So off we went for da jog...then after 1 round (normally we did 3 rounds), da 2 ladies dh siap2 mcm nk blk n they put dis plastic bag near dis jogging path..

Mom asked wuts dat n da lady said, "Kerang..Byk.."

   Mak: Byk kerang?ssh nk cr ke?

   Lady 1 : Byk...Nak plastik?

   Mak : Kak,nak cr kerang x?

   Me   : Ikut mak la....tanye akak lak...

So we went to da shore..FYI, da beach is diff now cmpared to few yrs ago..they built dis barriers so dat ppl cant go to da sand...they put rocks coz of da hakisan thingy...huhuhu..So,its like we hv to cross da barriers to reach da sand..hehe..xdela barrier mane pon...i ok jek..nsb pakai kst sukan..ada grip sket ms naik turun batu besar tu..hehe..

Ok,jst few steps at the rocks tu,suddenly I heard something..Mak looked at me n I looked at her..then we looked down..A CRAB!!!!!!! Both of us were screaming ---> KETAM!!! I told mom to take it (coz she holds da plastic bag okay~~) n i grab a stick..okla..sbnrnye i tkt kene sepit dgn crab tu..hohoho..but then I noticed dat da crab actually crippled..no wonder xlari..1 sepit dh hlg...hmm...so da crab is our rezeki..hehe...

Then da hunt for da cockles continues...nk cr cmne ek??wif lotsa confidence---> "ala,mak..yg xbk tu mesti hidup" (true wut?)

Skali2 btol!! There was dis 1 Indon lady who was looking for cockles as well told us dat..hehe..n my 1st cockle was a big one...ohohoh...No need to dig at all...jst looking near da shores..tpt ade air sket2..its like a thrill like dis..hepi giler siot dpt cr kerang...lg2 dpt yg bsr..skali tgk byk gak la dpt..

Then when we went home,we put them in dis basin n mmg byk siot..hehe...I never look at big cockles all my life ok...jg mcm jakun jap.Then I made some bfast..n suddenly mom said...Kak!!!hdpla..kerang2 tgh bk tu..Off I ran to da kitchen...Felt like an idiot to be so happy to look at them..hahaha...

Da catch of da day ( fresh from da sea ok~)

Da crabs n cockles-zoom in mode

So, we decided to cook char kuay teow n steamed crab..but then no pics on da dishes coz I was so hungry n excited...hehe...


Mom said during full moon,there will be lotsa cockles n crabs will be super fleshy..so,okla..next month,nk cr lgla..Seriously,I live here for 20 yrs n i never did dis kind of activity...hehehe...

Mode: HAPPYYYYYYYYYY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~but dis morning jela..some ppl jst ruined it..my patience was tested n I'm so trying hard to not blow it off...haih...Juita,ko xkaco org,org kaco ko..papela...

Trend???

Ok..It has been ages since I update this blog..Well, I did have the time, I mean like now is sooooo FREE but then when I look at other ppl's blog,it's like soooo much different coz iof the pics,lots of cheery stuff n mine is like totally blah..sigh~ ok..I admit I'm a total lazy bum..well, I like to write..in fact if u ask me to write something rite now, I hv no problem to do it coz I hv a lot in my mind just waiting to explode..from the education thingy to ppl to foods etc etc..well, I can be a novelist,mind u~hahaha

See,I notice how da children hv changed...I mean, A LOT...let me be more specific...teenagers..It's nothing new..In fact ppl find it rather normal nowadays but for me it's like hmmm...Did I ever tell that I like to observe ppl?? huhuhu...

Well, since I'm in dis education industry, I'm surrounded by lotsa children..be it kids or teenagers...

They grow up so fast nowadays...so fast not in da sense of grow bigger coz of da hormone-injection-chicken ya...what I mean is erm..how to say it...(ergh...I cant find it in my vocabulary's list). Ok..it's normal for them to hv a handphone at the age of 13...it's so normal for them to hv a bf/gf at 13...it's nothing new for a 10 yrs old to hv a fb account....it's natural for them to be sooo lovey dovey n tell da whole world abt their affection n eternal loyalty n vow...but wait...they are not cool if they are just being mere couple...holding hands is sooo yesterday..adik beradik pon pegang tgn....being a couple means we hv to do more...love making, f***ing etc...(guys,u knw wut im trying to say,ok~)

See,thats my concern...I've heard dis kind of stories a lot when I was a relief teacher at secondary school n it really surprised me to know that a 10 yr old tried to make love wif his gf in a classroom...10 YRS OLD?????
I xknow abt others or is it just me...but honestly, I never come across the word SEX until I'm 14...tu pon blaja sains okeh...hmm...

Even for cursing ppl,they feel its like so normal to just say F*** etc etc...(dik..akak mrh org pon pggil org monyet jek..) well...ehem...of cos there's some exceptional situation where I did slipped out dat word..hehe..N being an English teacher at secondary school n being a female (and beautiful) teacher, mmg sgt2 byk cobaan~~~~ example :

       Boy no 1 :Teacher, F*** tu mksud ape??
       Me         : Eyh?korg xtau ke mksd? igtkan dh tau...korg kan lg pndai dr tcer..
       Boy no2 : Ala tcer ni...km xtau la...
       Me         : Dh,jgn nk ngegade...u xlike me when I'm angry~~
      1 class     : Tcer...bgtau la....
      Me          : IF U WANT TO KNOW WUT IT MEANS,COME AND DO IT IN FRONT OF DA       CLASS NOW!!!!! (wif da sound volume is at da max wif hands on da hips..sory guys..no baju trkoyak)

N there was dis 1 article on newspaper the last 2 days----->Teens found naked after being chased by policemen.

This so called teenagers(okla..yg ni dh bsr sket..matang dh...19 n 18 thn jek..)thought dat da most dangerous place is da safest place so they decided to hv sex at highway...being soooo in da moment, they didnt realize that there was a patrol car n da policemen were curious n wondering why there's a car stopping at da hway?ade prob ke? kete prob ke?

It's a natural thing for them to be shocked..n without much time to spare,they fled off...no time to pakai2 blk da bajus...n off they crashed....no worries...they r just fine...jst a bit embarrassed n ready to be lambasted wif ceramah,maki hamun n pelbagai by their respective parents n org2 yg trlibat...

So, I really cn understand why Wardina cried when she interviewed da girl from dis 1 shelter home...Im not a mother but I cn feel it how worried I will be to my kids...Can my girl defend herself from temptations? Can my boy fight da lust? Im not a mother yet but Im worried...Now I know why its hard to raise children...its not jst abt giving them foods,shelter n educations...

Im hoping for my happiness...Im searching for my Imam for my future Masjid...to guide me n my children for the path dat will guarantee us Heaven...N I pray dat Im strong n forever be sincere to guide them (my children n my students) so that they wont make the mistakes...

Now I know hw a mother feels...

Men~

If u already hv a gf,xever,ever try to give me hopes.Yes,u never said it but u were giving hopes.msg2,tepon2.Ke i sorg yg perasan???but then,bl tanye,xde~single,kwn biase.erm...last2 yg skt ht,merana tu sape???minah ni gak..huhu



Pnt la.dh smpai thp lelah dh.ada gf tp nape nk cr yg lain?will dat make any difference if u r with me??Still u can do the same in the future kan??Men are blessed.They can say the most cheesy line and the L word easily eventhough they never meant them.And ironically,eventhough women,they know,yet they will always be swept off their feet.



I dont want to know or even understand why. I just know that I dont want to be in dat situation.ckp jek tp kene gak brp kali.A lot la..Still, Im like hoping gak.Juita,just accept the truth.U r xmeant for serious rship.Men xtake u seriously.

They will play u n dump u.

Damn~

People is intimidated by me..or to be more specific..men.why ar??as if Im going to slice them into pieces..Am i that 'sombong' that they are like afraid with me??sorry to say but Im not the gedik type nor am I the peramah type..
I may look unaproachable but once u know me,u'll be surprised how gedik I am.haha.Naah..Im just that boring type of gal kot.hoho

But then,I always listen ppl say that the ppl who is too peramah n gets along with u very fast,dat kind of person is well,u know,not that reliable and is hypocrite.Well,I had experienced dat.In fact,many times.N Im like the type dat can easily be taken advantage of and cpt kesian kan,so dats why kena byk kali.

My love life sucks.Hurt,sad,whatever..pathetic pun ada.Am not that desperate but then I do get lonely sometimes.I wont deny it coz it's true.N then,my heart has been broken like a lot n rasa mcm xde perasaan dh kot..I xknow why but men always broke my heart n they will make it as if Im the reason.I will argue but I'll admit if Im wrong..It was totally n clearly n obviously that they were wrong.They were the ones that had some issues n they were blaming me???I didnt try hard enough??bullshit!Curang dpn mata pun xnak ngaku..N im the one yg slh.

But then,eventhough it's tiring to be a teacher, n now that Im going to teach primary schoolchildren,I feel like I am blessed in a way..They are cute n innocent..N they can be as naughty as i dont know,monkey?? but then,they make me laugh n smile..I will scold them,nag them but they will keep calling me 'teacher~~' n smile..Sometimes my ex-students will msg me n say they miss me..N one of them said he remembered how I scolded him in class..and to think that I did make an impact in someone's life..I dont know how to describe dat feeling..I feel appreciated..Mybe dat is the satisfaction dat we get if we r really sincere..I am lazy.God knows how lazy I am..but when I say it,I mean it..I xwant them to make mistakes like I did.I want them to succeed.They xknow hows life out there..

To think that I am appreciated..its nice I must say..but to be appreciated by men??Mybe all my fault la kot..dats why.

Well,intimidated ke nk take advantage ke..buatla..I played my part n if u just want to toy around,what can I say?I will be swept off my feet again n again but then my heart will be broken n broken into pieces again.What a life..My life is interesting in a way.Lots of drama..Cerita kat kwn2 pun diorg pening.pusing2 smpai they said ur life mmg leh buat drama.hoho

Whateverla,Juita..Be strong~ I am consoling myself!!!! (sob sob~)

happy..?

Happy?? xknow how to describe it..

Who am I???

To whom should I trust??should I trust my instinct?or what i see?or what I heard?

Am I too easy to be pleased?or easy to be taken advantage of?or am I just a plain idiot who is so adamant in believing what I think is right??or am I just a plain ignorant??

I want to be happy. I really am..I want to be..me...I want us to be us..Is it me who should sacrifice?? I am holding to this one promise to this one person..I should never give up on him..never..should one day,he wants to leave or somebody wants him, I must fight for him..N so does he..Dat is why I never give up hopes..I am fighting,fighting and fighting..Eventhough I feel really tired n as if I have no dignity, I am still fighting..

But I did give up hope once..But yet,I was given a hope back at a time when I just gave up..N being a human being, I believe and wait for it to happen again..A hope that I'm still waiting for it to happen..

Is it my fault??Why am I putting myself in a position that will make myself to be..sad??

Crying n crying..the pain..i wish he knows..does he??or he just being ignorant??I want to hate him..I really do..I hate him..n then I realised..I love him..I really do..to hear him say those words..I'm happy..to hear his voice..I miss him so much..I love him so much..I wish he knows it..maybe he does..maybe he hates me..maybe he loves me..I dont know..I just hope one day I will be happy..

Dear God,pls give me strength..pls make my journey in this world to be smooth..

Still..I love him..